Trying to grind back to even

Well since my last post i'm up about 1k making me -$500 for Feb, so getting close to even. I've def had streaks like this before but I think it being at the beg of the month has made it more bothersome to me, and it shouldn't matter. It's just another 5 day period, it just so happens the downswing is hitting in the beginning of the month. Today I experienced some more brutal beats, the following being the funniest:

PokerStars Game #24658434706: Tournament #138979782, $220+$10 Hold'em No Limit - Match Round I, Level I (10/20) - 2009/02/06 14:26:32 ET
Table '138979782 1' 2-max Seat #2 is the button
Seat 1: bartchalker (1190 in chips)
Seat 2: villain (1810 in chips)
villain: posts small blind 10
bartchalker: posts big blind 20
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to bartchalker [Th Td]
villain: calls 10
bartchalker: raises 80 to 100
villain: calls 80
*** FLOP *** [6s 2s 4c]
bartchalker: bets 200
villain: calls 200
*** TURN *** [6s 2s 4c] [6h]
bartchalker: bets 500
villain: raises 1010 to 1510 and is all-in
bartchalker: calls 390 and is all-in
Uncalled bet (620) returned to fonda1
*** RIVER *** [6s 2s 4c 6h] [Ad]
*** SHOW DOWN ***
bartchalker: shows [Th Td] (two pair, Tens and Sixes)
villain: shows [Tc As] (two pair, Aces and Sixes)
villain collected 2380 from pot
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot 2380 | Rake 0
Board [6s 2s 4c 6h Ad]
Seat 1: bartchalker (big blind) showed [Th Td] and lost with two pair, Tens and Sixes
Seat 2: villain (button) (small blind) showed [Tc As] and won (2380) with two pair, Aces and Sixes

Villain was a massive massive calling station so i raised big and bet for value the whole way and it worked, result was def not what I was looking for though. Seems alot of the $200's have been like that for me this month, crushing beats. This next one is quite funny also from a 100 double or nothing:

PokerStars Game #24661120476: Tournament #138986906, $100+$4 Hold'em No Limit - Level I (10/20) - 2009/02/06 15:55:36 ET
Table '138986906 1' 10-max Seat #4 is the button
Seat 1: aaja99 (1500 in chips)
Seat 2: bigwagner (1490 in chips)
Seat 3: PMK2MJD (1470 in chips)
Seat 4: pokerprolabs (1500 in chips)
Seat 5: Fordy1979 (1510 in chips)
Seat 6: bartchalker (1500 in chips)
Seat 7: grosjeangros (1500 in chips)
Seat 8: SirSpewsALot (1500 in chips)
Seat 9: PowellJam (1500 in chips)
Seat 10: dgray75 (1530 in chips)
Fordy1979: posts small blind 10
bartchalker: posts big blind 20
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to bartchalker [Ad As]
grosjeangros: calls 20
SirSpewsALot: folds
PowellJam: folds
dgray75: calls 20
aaja99: folds
bigwagner: folds
PMK2MJD: folds
pokerprolabs: calls 20
Fordy1979: folds
bartchalker: raises 140 to 160
grosjeangros: calls 140
dgray75: calls 140
pokerprolabs: folds
*** FLOP *** [Kh 8h Ts]
bartchalker: bets 550
grosjeangros: calls 550
dgray75: folds
*** TURN *** [Kh 8h Ts] [5d]
bartchalker: bets 790 and is all-in
grosjeangros: calls 790 and is all-in
*** RIVER *** [Kh 8h Ts 5d] [Tc]
*** SHOW DOWN ***
bartchalker: shows [Ad As] (two pair, Aces and Tens)
grosjeangros: shows [9d Th] (three of a kind, Tens)
grosjeangros collected 3190 from pot
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot 3190 | Rake 0
Board [Kh 8h Ts 5d Tc]
Seat 1: aaja99 folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Seat 2: bigwagner folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Seat 3: PMK2MJD folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Seat 4: pokerprolabs (button) folded before Flop
Seat 5: Fordy1979 (small blind) folded before Flop
Seat 6: bartchalker (big blind) showed [Ad As] and lost with two pair, Aces and Tens
Seat 7: grosjeangros showed [9d Th] and won (3190) with three of a kind, Tens
Seat 8: SirSpewsALot folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Seat 9: PowellJam folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Seat 10: dgray75 folded on the Flop

Once again, morons at the table so I raise big for value and to discourage set miners, shitty river, lol. But today was different in that I experienced a few "good" beats also. I don't wanna go looking for the HH but the ones that come to mind are JJ beating QQ all in pre, 66 on a 336Jx baord against J3, 64 of spades flopping a flush on a Q7x board against Q7......and holding!!! Nice!!! So hopefully the tide is starting to turn and maybe in the next day or two I can be back in the black baby.

I had some dude who was a very slight winner try to lecture me about how badly I play small pairs or some shit after I spanked him. Spanked that fucker right on his ass I did. Beat it buddy or I'll come spank your whole goddamn family. HA. I love it when people with a 3% ROI feel the need to lecture me on how badly I play, it's even better though when it comes from a total fishbowl, that always cracks me up. I like to ask them how much they charge for lessons, and if they can teach me to play as well as them.

Annnnyyyyywaaaayyyssss, I'm out this biatch.

Mr Baller bartchalker